My Bullet is gone. :(

[Lefty]

This is so hard, I’ve lost my shadow.

I'm finally just now able to post here about it, it's been difficult.

We lost Bullet on December 11th in the evening. For the past couple of months we’ve been dealing with some health issues with him. After full blood panels he had become anemic and he had problems keeping food down and very lethargic. Most days were good, some not so good.

When I left that morning for work Bullet was doing ok. When I came home from work Bullet was lying on the floor and couldn’t get up. He had thrown up his food and was breathing very weird and he didn’t wiggle his bum for me. I called our vet and he said to bring him in even though they were closing.

He had warmed up the ultra sound and was waiting for us. Not good news. His spleen was huge with a massive growth in it and some bleeding into the abdomen, a growth on his liver and another on his pancreas; he was not going to get better. I just cried as I held him.

Our vet got him ready to go and my husband and I walked into the room to where Bullet was. He looked up and gave me a bum wiggle and gave me kisses. I held him in my arms and talked to him as he laid his head down and went to sleep. My voice was the last thing he heard. Bullet went very peacefully.

A big part of me died on that table with him. It just still hurts so much.


Bear with me as I remember...when Bullet came into the SPCA where I volunteer at all he did was lay at the back of his kennel. The volunteers were afraid to walk him so I took him out. I snapped a leash on him and said come, Bullet followed by my left side. I walked him through the trails and down to the field for a walk. As I watched him next to me I could see that he was unsure of himself and the situation.

I walked us over to a bench and I sat down, Bullet stood a few feet in front of me not knowing what to do. I told him to sit and he did, he watched me. He hesitantly put up a paw. I crouched down off the bench and smiled and open my arms wide. Bullet rushed into my arms and laid his head on my shoulder and sighed. I held him and talked to him until he backed up and kissed me on the face. I told him lets go for a walk and we moved on, this time there was a spring in his step. Bullet came home with us shortly afterwards.

He was the best friend that I could ever ask for, my clown, my protector, my confident and so much more. We were so very lucky to have him in our lives for 6 1/2 years.

Rest well my soul mate dog, you will always be in my heart until we meet again. I will always love you.

[moondog]

I'm so very sorry he had to go, and so suddenly.

Originally Posted by Lefty

As I watched him next to me I could see that he was unsure of himself and the situation.

I walked us over to a bench and I sat down, Bullet stood a few feet in front of me not knowing what to do. I told him to sit and he did, he watched me. He hesitantly put up a paw. I crouched down off the bench and smiled and open my arms wide. Bullet rushed into my arms and laid his head on my shoulder and sighed. I held him and talked to him until he backed up and kissed me on the face. I told him lets go for a walk and we moved on, this time there was a spring in his step. Bullet came home with us shortly afterwards.

But I must say, this is just beautiful........you gave him a reason to live.

As hard as it is for you, and I know it's hard, he sure was a lucky dog to have your arms to die in.

Godspeed, Bullet....you've earned your Wings.

[TrinaJ]

I am so sorryfor your loss ~*sending you a hug*~

You gave him a second chance at life and for that he will be eternally grateful. You have 6 and half years of wonderful memories to keep with you.

Until you meet again...i hope you find comfort in the fact that he is no longer suffering.

RIP Bullett

Trina xo

[livertw]

What a beautiful story. I hope your memories will comfort you.

[bessy-senior]

Bullet was a very lucky dog to have a wonderful person like you to give him a second chance in life. Thanks to you, he learnt the meaning of love, loyalty and companionship.

God bless you, and Bullet. RIP Bullet!

[Sheenagirl]

I am so very, very sorry for your loss of Bullet.
Beautiful tribute to your Bullet. I am sure he knew you loved him.
You did find your heart dog for sure.
He was lucky you were there for him and gave him a great life and he gave you unconditional love in return.
You have your wonderful memories to cherish until you can be together again.
RIP Bullet - fly high with the angels. You are in very good company!

[harleychik66]

I am so sorry for your loss of Bullet. You two were lucky to have each other. RIP Bullet.

[slokarma]

I'm sorry, and I can only imagine imagine how hard it was to say goodbye.
I'm happy Bullet was so loved but sorry you had to let him go. I'm sorry.

[Lola B Marie]

What a wonderful match you both were. Your tribute to him says it all and I can well understand why it took so long to be able to write about it. My rescue was my heart dog and it took us a very long time to even be able to talk about her death. It was just so unfair and I loved her so much. I honored her memory by getting another rottie girl.
I am so sorry you lost your boy. We are never ready. Please remember that with out your generous heart, he never would have had such a wonderful life. You took a chance and you both were so blessed. It will get better. Look at his pictures. It's ok to cry when ever you feel like it but ,also remember to smile and to laugh out loud when you remember all the times he made you happy.
He is a rottie angel now, pain free and running with all our beloved rotties. Fly high sweet boy, please give Sheena Marie a kiss for us, she's the one running around with a pair of my bloomers in her mouth.

[AngelBunny]

I am so very very sorry for your loss. Your tribute to Bullet was moving and loving. He was extraordinarily lucky you opened your arms, heart, and home to him. You were so lucky to be so wonderfully gifted with your companion, Bullet.

I hope when you're ready you'll open your arms and heart again to some very lucky dog.

[Rocodog]

Im so sorry, you were both very lucky to have each other. Im so glad Bullet had such a wonderful life with you.

God Bless you both.

[cerulean]

Thank you for your beautiful story. I hope it comforts you to share.... you have such a big open heart, I'm sure he had a wonderful life with you.

[Kandi]

I am so very sorry for your loss. Sounds like he had a wonderful life and was loved very much and very loving towards you. RIP Bullet. May your memories of him always bring you joy.

[Sam's Mom]

I too feel your pain...it is so powerful...the love that is shared. May your heart be on the mend soon.
RIP Bullet till that day when you are reunited with your very own person