Am I losing it?

[richnthor]

I lost the most wonderful dog I ever shared time with last August. To me he was the most handsome Rottie; he captured my soul. We understood each other so well. Tears are foolishly fought by men but any thought or mention of my Thor during those two weeks turned me into what I thought was a weepy wuss even though I knew it was a sign of my bond and my love for that big, proud, self-confident animal. But the reason I am writing this is to ask fellow pet owners if they have ever thought about or heard about what I am about to relate. Tell me honestly if I should see a shrink immediately.
About a month after my loss, I dreamt that Thor came to visit me looking all fresh, bathed, clean and happy. He came and sat next to me looking up as they do. Then several months later I dreamt that while I was sleeping he had jumped up on the bed as he had done before and pressed his back against me as he used to do. When I felt the pressure I woke up almost believing I would see him. Just a day ago, I dreamt I heard something at the window but I ignored it. Hearing it again in my dream I went to the second floor window to see Thor desperately hanging on for dear life. I opened the window, got my arms under his front legs, and with enormous effort pulled the big lug in. I fell backwards from the effort, still hugging him. He was exhausted too, but he managed to turn his big head around and lick my face once. I felt like crying again and woke up with my arms in a hugging position and mumbling to myself “thank you for these visits”. Since I am one of those who dream in color and I hope my “visits” never end.
What’s the verdict of fellow Rottweiler owners?

[AngelBunny]

I think your dreams are magical. I'd give so very much to have dreams of my dogs. You are so extraordinarily lucky--I am so envious. Treasure those dreams.

[shybird]

They come. They watch over us. I just wish mine would come more often. I am sorry for your loss and pain.


I Stood By Your Bed Last Night
Author Unknown.

I stood by your bed last night, I came to have a peep. I could see that you were crying, you found it hard to sleep. I whined to you softly as you brushed away a tear, "It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."
I was close to you at breakfast, I watched you pour the tea, you were thinking of the many times, your hands reached down to me.
I was with you at the shops today,
Your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels, I wish I could do more.
I was with you at my grave today,
You tend it with such care.
I want to reassure you, that I am not lying there. I walked with you towards the house,
as you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my paw on you, I smiled and said "it's me."
You looked so very tired, and sank into a chair. I tried so hard to let you know, that I was standing there. It's possible for me to be so near you everyday. To say to you with certainty, "I never went away.
You sat there very quietly, then smiled, I think you knew. In the stillness of that evening, I was very close to you. The day is over... I smile and watch
you yawning and say "good-night,
God bless, I'll see you in the morning."
And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide, I'll rush across to greet you and we'll stand, side by side. I have so many things to show you, there is so much for you to see. Be patient, live your journey out ... then come home to be with me.
Loved Ones Are With You Always,
Wherever You May Go

[hhalford]

I have had dreams of Bruce since his death and they are awesome! In the dreams they had cured the parvo, he was healthy, and he was running in our backyard. I hope to dream of him again tonight.

[marianne]

No you are not losing it!!! Bruce is letting you know the Rainbow Bridge takes our babies,makes them well....and SOMEDAY you will meet again!

Sorry for your hurt and pain now. Think of your good days together. Bruce is now waiting for you, watching butterflies,...just waiting.

RIP BRUCE

[Sissy]

I don't think you are losing it, on the contrary, your dreams subconsciously help you to move on. I lost my parents 5 years ago but they come to my dreams so often that I think they are still here...but then maybe I should see a shrink too!!!

[Francess]

Originally Posted by richnthor

I lost the most wonderful dog I ever shared time with last August. To me he was the most handsome Rottie; he captured my soul. We understood each other so well. Tears are foolishly fought by men but any thought or mention of my Thor during those two weeks turned me into what I thought was a weepy wuss even though I knew it was a sign of my bond and my love for that big, proud, self-confident animal. But the reason I am writing this is to ask fellow pet owners if they have ever thought about or heard about what I am about to relate. Tell me honestly if I should see a shrink immediately.
About a month after my loss, I dreamt that Thor came to visit me looking all fresh, bathed, clean and happy. He came and sat next to me looking up as they do. Then several months later I dreamt that while I was sleeping he had jumped up on the bed as he had done before and pressed his back against me as he used to do. When I felt the pressure I woke up almost believing I would see him. Just a day ago, I dreamt I heard something at the window but I ignored it. Hearing it again in my dream I went to the second floor window to see Thor desperately hanging on for dear life. I opened the window, got my arms under his front legs, and with enormous effort pulled the big lug in. I fell backwards from the effort, still hugging him. He was exhausted too, but he managed to turn his big head around and lick my face once. I felt like crying again and woke up with my arms in a hugging position and mumbling to myself “thank you for these visits”. Since I am one of those who dream in color and I hope my “visits” never end.
What’s the verdict of fellow Rottweiler owners?

I am so envious of you. Your not mad, just so very lucky.

[Sam's Mom]

Richnthor, your dreams sound like a beautiful place that you are able to visit your boy.
Shybird, what a touching poem, it brought a tear to my eye.

[Alura]

These dreams certainly speak of your bond with him and your love for him. My husband of 5 years had 2 beloved Golden Retrievers which he bread many years before we met. The one litter had 11 puppies and were LOTS of work as you can imagine! They meant lots to him and still do. More than once I have woken up in the middle of the night from him talking to the puppies.

You are not loosing it..you are just a man with a big heart!

[livertw]

I dream of Daisy all the time............

[Gunsey'sMom]

I think your dreams are a precious gift! You are not going crazy. I too have dreams of loved ones that I have lost. I think they are a gift from God. Like I am getting time to spend with the people (and even pets) that I love so much, but was not ready to let go of. I think it is wonderful and beautiful, and I cherish every one and am thankful for them. So, you see- You are not the only one who has them!

It started when We lost my brothers cat, Tiger. We had to put him to sleep and out of his pain from diabetes. I started having alot of them when I put down my cat, Foosie, to save him from his suffering from kidney failure. After my grandmothers and grandfathers both past away I would also get an occasional visit with them as well in a dream.

Enjoy your dreams, they are a gift! They will help you work through your feelings of loss for your beloved Thor as well!

[hokisteph5]

No, you're not losing it. I think dreams allow some of us to make connections with those who've moved on and help make peace with what's happened.

When I was younger I got to see my grandmother. When I was in college I got to say goodbye to my grandfather. I've since had dreams of a few beloved animals I've lost. In all of them they were well again.

The only thing I can remember happening when I was actually awake occurred when Samson was a puppy. I was in my bathroom, in front of the mirror, and felt a nudge on the back of my calf. Thinking it was Samson I looked down, but he wasn't there. He was out in the living room laying by the couch. I'm not sure which animal it was, but I guess they wanted me to know they were there.

[richnthor]

Thank you for your understanding Shybird and the touching poem. There I went again as I read your mail with tears streaming down my cheeks (will it ever end?). The group's many replies show me how many others have an ache in their hearts. I have come upon some absolutely wonderful, sensitive new friends. It is very uplifting to have so many of you reflecting on the deep affection you have for your pets. At a time when we hear about the madness of dog fighting, both you and your pets are the lucky ones sharing mutual respect for each other and your pets. If we observe, our pets set the bar high while we try to learn what unconditional love looks like.

[Canula2000]

I have "felt" my dogs before that have passed. It was a couple days after fanci was buried that I heard her bark in the yard and went out to get her. Then I heard her run thru the house. Recently with our new pup I feel her presence although more quietly now. Every thing my pup does reminds me of her and now I am sure she is a re-incarnate of my girl.
I think it is common with death although few would talk of it.

[Sharon Marples]

I think this is a wonderful story, you are blessed to have your dreams.