I haven't forgotten you angel,my sweet baby

[Leahjean]

My angel Leah on this your birthday,I have to pay tribute to your memory,you were my best friend,my poor baby had to go thru alot with mommie,the loss of two of our homes by fire and flood,you let me lean on you,hug you and cry,I could tell you were hurt too..I had to move away from you for 1yr. but came to Matt's to see you every day,you were so happy to see me each day,but I had to leave you at night,It hurt so much,then the second time,Matt put a bed for me in his living room and we got to stay together,you slept with me every night and with all the pain and stress we managed to spend our time together..6 mo later we got into our 3rd home in 5 yrs...you loved our time alone together.. I didn't forget honey that you first came from a pet store,then to an owner who didn't want you because you were too big and playful and kept you alone in a dirty basement..you were only 9 mo. when they decided to end your life,but then you came to mommy and we tried to make your life better,then our home losses were tough on you too...we got to live in this home only 3 mo. before you went away..I would give up all homes to be with you,So I'm not very happy here without you,I kept telling you we'd get someplace just for us,but you couldn't stay,you got sick and we tried everything we could,prayed so much,maybe I made you stay longer than you wanted to,but I couldn't bear to let you go...I took you for your last ride,you didn't want to go,I think you knew what was going to happen,you fought to the end not to let the DR and assistant carry you in,I wished so many times I would've brought you back,but to what,Illness and Medications that weren't working?...Everyone said I did the right thing,but It sure didn't and doesn't feel like it yet...you had so much room to play or just snoop around,plenty to eat,warm in the winter cool in the summer..anything you wanted,you were so good honey,you really were always satisfied with whatever we gave you..appreciated each and every toy so much,we loved bringing them home for you,you were so surprised and happy,...I could talk all day about you and not get it all said,how you woke me up when my asthma got too bad,or when I fell,which I did alot you always came to me to help me up,never let me out of your sight,I can see your eyes now,so much love between us..I guess it had to be baby,I picked a star for you,its so bright like your heart...When it's cloudy I cant see it and it makes me sad,like tonight,I feel like the angels are crying with me,making the rain....I LOVE YOU ALWAYS, LEAH 7/15/93=====3/23/00 Please understand my sweetheart,I got another Leah,named her after you,but she'll never replace you,I love her and will take care of her like I did you and hope God will let her stay longer than he did you,I got her because I was so lonely,I know you would like her honey,you could play...Please wait for me Leah..My Love. Matt and Madonna miss you too......... MOMMY