my angel is gone.....

[Leahjean]

My angel Leah,had to be euthenised last Monday due to cancer in her shoulder,I'm still dying inside,just can't quit looking for her to be near.I kept her as long as I could with pain meds and all the love I had I know there is something to this love thing and health.The vet gave her 4 to 6 month when the the limp turned into the disease.We had so much more to do,she was only 6 years old.I kept her going for 4 months but the tummor grew so fast the last month her arm stuck out.She fought me all the way,getting her into the car which she loved,getting her out it was as though she knew.I selfishly wish I would have brought here home,I gave and she gave back so much love.She would awakeen me when my asthma made me start making funny noises in the night. When she would lay in her bed the last few months she would look up to make sure I was there, I would tell her,Mommy is here and I'll be here when you wake up,Which is the last words I said to her at the vets Mommy will be here when you wake up honey...I wish I had one more day with my Leah,but one wouldn't be enough I would always want another day to hold her so lovingly,she weighed 120 lbs I rescued her at 9 months and she never wanted for another thing,we always said she hit the lottery,but the last battle I could not save her and I will always wonder if it could have been prevented. If so Please God tell me how...I've had and lost many pets but somehow this has left me so empty and lost. jean

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jean