Some people don't understand

[bnecaise]

I lost my precious Beau last wed. People here at work don't seem to understand the loss I'm feeling. I feel as if a part of me is gone. I keep wondering if there was something else I could have done. He was 8 1/2 years old and was fine until 2 weeks ago. His hind legs kept going out from under him, he started walking in circles, went blind in 1 eye. My vet came to the house twice with medicine and steroid shot. We then took him to another vet who had exray equip. They found nothing but in the blood work they found he had addison's, hypothyroidism and 0 calcium. They could only offer advice of taking him to LSU for a mri but they felt even if I did the outlook was grim. I was told the test would run between 2 to 3 thousand dollars. I couldn't afford that and also felt he would have gone through more stress being away from me. I brought him home and he seemed better for a few days then he started having seizures the last day. I trying calling our vet at lunch to put him down but he was out. Beau hung on until I got home from work and sat by him and told him it was ok, that I'd be fine and I'd meet him at the rainbow bridge. When I said that he shook all over and left me. I really don't know what to do. I've had dogs my whole life (43 yrs) but my rottie was so special, he was by shadow. Anyway, I know its to late to find help for him, but I just needed to talk to others who know the love of their dogs.
Thanks for listening
Bonnie

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