always wondering; searching

[Sheri/Chonna]

This seems to be the most popular and widely visited site for Rottweiler lovers; and so now, almost 3 months later, I am grabbing at my last hope. Maybe the 'Rainbow Bridge' section isn't the most appropriate, but maybe it is. I just keep praying that someday I will KNOW. I got my very first Rottie puppy this past August. He was only 5 1/2 weeks old - born June 30, 1999. By the time he was 8 weeks old, Buster Brown had completely grabbed my heart. Not only was he the SMARTEST, by FAR, of any puppy I've ever had (lots & lots!!) he was just PART of me -- CONNECTED like I have never experienced before. I don't know what prior 'presence' may have been in him, but Buster & I were ATTACHED without a doubt. In the middle of the night, I would stir, always plagued by bad dreams, and I would feel Buster's paw come lay on my arm or my back, and would REALLY LITERALLY feel SOMETHING.... Some strange and wonderful thing between us would just connect, and all would be well. Always. I am not a little kid (I'm 38) nor am I a newcomer to dogs -- have had them all my life. But this eerie, strange, wonderful, connection was real. Anyone who was around us saw it and felt it and it was very magical.
I was helping someone out at the time, letting her stay with me temporarily; things built up, went from bad to worse, and she finally moved out. I immediately changed the locks and the alarm code. What I never dreamed of, however, happened. Buster Brown was only 4 1/2 months old; he had a doggie door to come & go at will; he was lured outside by someone he thought was a "friend". D'Ann was seen by an eyewitness. I filed charges, of course, but she has never given up ANY info as to what she did with Buster. It happened on November 20, 1999. Every dog pound in the area (LARGE AREA) got personal visits, flyers. I went door to door in EVERY little town off of EACH highway anywhere NEAR where I knew her to be staying. Every lead I got I FLOODED the area. I filed charges; she DID go to jail briefly. Just a small fine, less than a slap on the wrist.... no worse than picking up a damn lawn chair out of my front yard according to the law. I have kept a VIGILE on her whereabouts, but from a distance, hoping against all hope that she had simply stashed Buster somewhere until she could get somewhere that she thought I didn't know or wouldn't find her. My guardian angel let me know immediately who had taken Buster and somehow even in a HUGE CITY, I have been kept VERY updated on D'Ann's whereabouts. She lost her job over the ordeal (I sent the police to pick her up at work). Her 2 daughters are completely disgusted by her.... NOW she has stolen a truck from this guy she had moved in with and has gone back to Mississippi. He's filed charges, of course, and I'm sure she'll be picked up soon; I gave them the address to the only place she has to go in Mississippi. But in all these months - (three, but that's an ETERNITY to me AND to a 4 1/2 mo. old baby) - she has NEVER been seen with my Buster.
Buster Brown will be 8 months old on Feb. 30th. He's one of those Rott's with the EXCEPTIONALLY SHINY coats. He was picked up from my house in Garland, Texas, but probably dumped somewhere along 20 East or 175 East in Seagoville or any of the other little towns that direction. As I said, this is my last effort..... I just want to know SOMETHING. I get into this site a lot and just cry and cry and cry. My baby boy might not be dead; but it's looking more and more like I will never see him again, will never know. He was wearing tags, but obviously she took them off. PLEASE, I know this site is read by LOTS and LOTS of people. If you or someone you know SOMEHOW managed to acquire a gorgeous 4 1/2 mo. old Rott around the end of November, just PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE let me know. That's what I just cannot stand. I feel like my heart's been ripped out, and I just want to know he's okay. Or I want to know if he's not okay. I just need to know if he's lonely or if he's being fed & taken care of. I just need to know SOMEHOW what has happened. PLEASE. Again, I am crying my eyes out - a grown woman with a ridiculously busy life -- 2 daughters, one in high school, a full time job and a single mother. I am just praying for some answers. If you or ANYONE knows anything, You can KEEP Buster Brown, of course. I promise..... I am just taking a long shot at some kind of closure. Next to TORTURE, I don't guess D'Ann is EVER going to volunteer the information as to what she did with my baby. I have a GREAT picture of him taken just before he was stolen; but I don't know how to get it onto this web site. Maybe you can help. Or MAYBE the runner of this site can direct this entire message to somewhere better....
I don't know -- I'm just grasping at anything. Please, ANYTHING would help.
I am CONVINCED that when my time is up Buster Brown WILL be waiting at the Rainbow Bridge; I KNOW he will always know me. I just really would like to know he's okay.....
Thanks for all your great stories!!!!!!

[Sheri/Chonna]

Sorry, I'm replying to myself! I just forgot to add that I live (besides 'Garland, Texas') in the DALLAS area - please ANY new Rott additions to families in the general time frame, PLEASE think "maybe....."
And also, I was SO enthralled by this breed in the short time span I had Buster, that I did get another Rott puppy. He is a little over 4 mos. old and "Dylan" attended his first obedience training class last night. Even though I think he's just as smart as "all get-out" truthfully he was as "non-smart" as the rest of the puppies there. But the class seems good -- any feedback? It's the "Park Cities Dog Training" on Dyer St. in Dallas, TX. It's an hour long class once a week for 6 weeks.
(I have to add this quietly so Dylan won't hear - he's GREAT. I guess ALL Rottweilers are extremely smart! But, the "CONNECTION" like with Buster Brown..... I guess that's a once in a lifetime thing....)
Please help me just know SOMETHING.

Please, whoever edits, etc. this web-site, PLEASE put these 2 messages wherever you think they will do the MOST! I think this is the MOST read Rottweiler site on the net.... I feel like maybe there might be SOMETHING.....
I almost forgot - PLEASE go to HTTP://pages.prodigy.net/rak59/

to see a picture of Buster Brown just DAYS before he was taken. He was 4 1/2 mos. old - will be turning 8 months old on Feb. 30. (except that there's NOT a Feb. 30, so I guess it's more like March 1st!!!)
Lotsa love!!


[This message has been edited by Sheri/Chonna (edited February 18, 2000).]