3 months ago...

[Disturbed_Angel]

3 months ago today was Roxies last day with me. Sometimes i can't believe it's been this long, othertimes it feels like yesterday. My heart still hurts for her, sometimes when i'm returning home from somewhere my chest tightens up when i remember she won't be waiting for me, sometimes i wake up and forget just for a moment that she's gone and i won't stroke her big head again.
3 months ago, i was trying to make sure she had done all her favourite things, we played tug til we were both lying on the floor in exhaustion, we lay together as i brushed her shiny fur and she went her favourite walk with her granny because granny needed time to say goodbye too. On the way to the vets we stopped at McDonalds and the greedy girl had 2 cheeseburgers and an ice-cream. She was happy.
3 months ago, i held her and told her i loved her, that she was a good girl, Fudge the bunny was waiting to play again and to wait for me at the bridge because i wouldn't be long.
So, 3 months on, i still miss her more than anything, i have a hole in my heart where my heart dog took a piece with her.
Roxie, I'll love you and miss you always baby girl.

[trish603a]

wow, what a beautiful memory of roxie. you write with such love, i have tears rolling down my cheeks right now. i am sorry for your loss.

[webangel2b]

(((hugs))) Thank god we had time with them. She might have a piece of your heart forever but she sure filled your life while she was here.

[Lola B Marie]

Oh, how I wish I could just give you a hug and promise you that It will get better. A part of your precious girl is engraved on your back and her beautiful spirit is in your heart. I have never seen a more beautiful tattoo. When she watches over you, she can see her picture where ever you are. I know how it feels to have shared so much with one special dog. I lost my Sheena Marie when she was 11. She was a rescue puppy and my first Rottie. I pretended to every one that I was ok.People just got tired of me crying and talking about her and how lost I was with out her. That is why I joined this site. I needed to talk with people who really understand what this kind of bond means. It has been a little less than 3yrs since we made the "trip" Even though she vomited all over me, I still let her eat to her hearts content. She had Wendy's and I had valium. We have Lola now, but not a day passes that I don't remember Sheena. The thing that changes with time is that now, all the memories of her are happy ones. I keep her ashes in a rottie urn and I say good morning to her every day. Lola has learned to sit by the shelf and raise her paw when I say, Go see Sheena. This is not morbid, it is a passage of growth. I know that Sheena wants us to be happy. I smile now when I talk about her and that feels really great. I know you will come to this point in life. It will not be easy but , it will happen. Feeling happy when you think about Roxy will never diminish the amount of love you have for her. She does not want her mom to be sad. Her beautiful and generous spirit is free. Try to focus more on the wonderful times you shared together. The more happiness you can feel, the brighter your aura becomes and the easier it is for the spirits to see us. Every one here has either experienced the loss of a treasured rottie or unfortunately will go through the saddness at some time. We are here for each other!!!
Jane

[shybird]

Carrie,
I hope you can feel the HUG coming from me. You wrote such a beautiful tribute to Roxie. We are here for each other. We know about Special Angels.

[Sour Sugar]

Many hugs to you and your family. Listen with your heart and you will hear Roxie playing with all her new friends on the rainbow bridge.

[Sheenagirl]

Hugs going out to you from me also. Oh do I know how you feel. Not a day goes by that I don't think of my Sheena. It has been a little over 10 weeks now and the house is still lonely without her and how everything I do reminds me of something Sheena did or something she liked.
Some things gets a little easier over time - like actually being able to talk about Sheena's illness and her being gone where as before I couldn't.
Pretty much I just put up a wall around me and keep my emotions inside (bad I know).
Thank God we have our memories of our special fur kids.
Anyway, I just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you and Roxie.

[Sasso]

I'm so sorry for your loss. At least you have those lovely memories of her, and she will always be in your heart.

[Disturbed_Angel]

Thanks guys, i appreciate all your thoughts for us. *Hugs*.

[Nina&Bill]

Just yesterday I was thinking about you & Roxie and wondering how you were. Carrie, I'm so very sorry .

Nina

[mana0615]

Tears welling up in my eyes...such love you had for your Roxie. The same kind of love that most of us have for our babies, and I know exactly how you feel when you have to come home to the missing piece. My heart goes out to you and I hope time can help you move on.

[Gunsey'sMom]

Carrie, I am thinking about you often. What a hard time you are going through. I am so sorry! I wish I could give you a great big hug!!

[Troodie's Mom]

Reaching for the Kleenex again here. It is so hard right now, and you will have good days and not-so-good days, but you will someday reach a point where the memories and reminders that bring tears now will someday bring a smile instead of sadness. I promise you this will happen. Hang in there.