Wolfgang 3-12-96 2-15-06

[kerry]

One year ago today I lost you, my love...and along with you..went my mind.

When my dad showed up at my doorstep of that efficiency apartment with you and your brother...I just thought Oh my god..I can't do this...within seconds your 2 month old body was in my bed taking a poop....no way I thought..no way

Although your brother had to go to live on the family farm(for obvious reasons)we made it through...(He's doing fine by the way..getting pretty slow..)

I was just a punk kid when you came into my life..and remained a punk for quite a few years...I made every possible mistake you could make...although you didn't seem to notice.....You made it look like everyone was suppose to be sleeping in the car!!

On that fourth trip to the emergency room after scratching me in the eye..again..(we finally got that worked out didn't we!!)My mom was begging me to get rid of you..."He's gonna put your eye out!!"...no way..no how...I would have given an eye before you...

The years went by and you were my light....You were jealous of my husband at first..but you seemed to know how happy mama was...and that was good in your eyes.. (Just between us..I think he was a little jealous of you too.)

When you got sick that same guy you were jealous of gave us three more weeks together because he was the only one who could lift you...and helped me put you on the mountain to sleep...and helped me in the weeks(months?) that followed when my power of speech seemed to vanish...

When the life left your body at my request..I was so ashamed... you had never given up on me..even when I deserved it....But my love..please know...when I put that raw steak in my hands and you couldn't stand...I knew you were ready....

I'll never forget the way you looked at me when we were at the vet's that last time..I was insisting my husband help you stand...refusing to believe you couldn't...you collasped and just stared at me....scared and sad...and very paralyzed...The only thing I could do was to end your suffering..and begin my own.

You were my first rotty...my first real responsibility...my first real friend...and my first real heartbreak.....sometimes it seems you were only a dream...but that little scar on my hand you gave me when you decided mama WAS NOT going to swim in that scary lake will always be a physical reminder...you did exist...

Because you did exist...The person I am today is better...kinder....more patient..more loving...braver..stronger...Your love for me has been my greatest teacher....even in your death you continue to teach me....lessons of gratitude and appreciation...

I will always try to live by your example..my love..I miss you more everyday..Although I do smile from time to time now..The sun really does not seem as bright as it was when it was shining on you...love and miss you..mama

[jakesfostermom]

Well Kerry - that is an amazing tribute to your dog..........and tears are flowing - I hope you've found the peace in your heart to welcome another four legged friend into your life. Treasure your memories and the growth you've experienced because of his presence in your life.......this is beautiful what you've written.

[Tywaknya'sBABY]

WOW...That was a perfect tribute to your best friend. I felt like I knew both of you by the special way you displayed your happiness together.

[smileygirl]

What a wonderful sentiment to your friend! I was reminded yesterday attending a funeral for a neighbor...in faith your birthday is not the day you were born it is the day you pass...your friend will live forever in your heart and is free to begin the journey in all its glory...Hope you heart is lighter knowing your friend is pain-free and safe and watching over you...Tina

[Troodie's Mom]

That was beautiful, I am always touched by the tributes people write but that one really made me think of my Gretchie. I know about that losing-your-mind feeling, I was so broken up my hubby had to take her to the vets to be PTS. Time heals the sorrow, but we never forget the love.

[Sheenagirl]

What a wonderful tribute to your Wolfgang! I could tell how very much you loved him. He will forever live in your heart.
I lost my Sheena on Dec 22, 2006 - she went down - paralyzed in her rear legs and did not recover from what we/vet thinks was cancer or tumor within her spine. I know the feeling you spoke of - I would have done anything to be able to save her. We picked her up (by straps/towels) and carried her outside to go potty for many, many days. I feel blessed that we were able to share our life with her for 10 yrs, 9 mos & 1 day.
We both have our memories that will be with us for a lifetime.
What a great gift from God!

[kerry]

Thank you all for your thoughts for me and Wolfgang..I haven't been around the forums much lately...but whenever I come..the warmth and support never falters...We all unfortunately know each others pain...Thanks again.

[spoiledbabies3]

Kerry...Tears are flowing freely as I read the tribute to your wonderful Wolfgang. He left for the bridge 12 days behind my Sasha...I'm sure she was there to greet him...The emotional turmoil we experience is heartwrenching, yet we continue to love again...I hope your angel has helped to guide you to peace in your heart...Time is the ultimate healer...but we never forget...we aren't suppose to...Your hearts will forever be entwined...If you listen closely, your heart can still hear him...He is now an angel that you hear with the rustling of the leaves, the crackling of the fire, and the whistling of the wind...I hope your heart continues to heal Kerry...Wolfgang will continue to help you...