I lost my Kaya

[beth gordon]

After losing Winnie to Hemangiosarcoma in June, I didn't think the pain could be worse. This Saturday I lost Kaya and I don't even know to what. He had a bad tumor diagnosed (OS) and fracture in his back leg that was then amputated on Aug 18. There was also an intestinal mass that was suspicious so the vet had done a laperosocopy on the 16th to remove it. He came through both surgeries like a trooper, as though it was perfectly normal to have 3 legs. He didn't miss a meal, was walking around on his own, and just being his sweet self acting like everything was normal. The areas around the stitches looked clean and healthy.

Then, Friday night, 9 days later, I noticed a tiny bubble next to the last suture on his rump. I took him back to the hospital Sat AM. They felt all he needed was for it to be cleaned out under anesthesia, a drainage tube put in, put back on antibiotics, and then home the next morning. When the vet started the protocol, she realized the same problem was inside the site where he had the laperoscopy. When she saw that, she went in further and checked the intestinal resection. All three sites had the same 'look'. She felt that either his body was rejecting the internal stitches or he had had an allergic reaction. (He had been on IV antibiotics for 5 days after the surgery). She called me 3 times during the procedure as each new finding presented. It was becoming a situation where the degree of surgeries he would require, the length of the recovery period, the tubes, the catheters, all made her ask me to consider if it was fair to ask this much of him. When she said that, the severity of the situation really hit. Until then, I kept thinking it could be repaired if I just wanted it bad enough. So I made the decision to let my boy go.

The pain of losing Winnie hasn't subsided yet and now my Kaya is gone also. While I love my others fiercely, these are the 2 I raised from puppies. I did not think I could hurt worse than when I lost Winnie, but losing Kaya also has just doubled the pain.

Godspeed my precious babies. Take care of each other and know that I love you both so.

[TR Young]

Oh, Beth.... There are simply no words. I am so, so sorry about the trials that you are being faced with. It's hard enough to lose one friend; I can't imagine what you are dealing with.
Please know that you will be in my prayers.
Rest easy, good Kaya.

[JuneyB]

I am so sorry to read this. Life is not fair sometimes....and losing two of your special dogs so close....that is beyond words.

You made a hard choice...way harder on you than Kaya. Hang in there....wish there were better words.

Play long at the bridge Kaya

[tilly]

there are no words
my heart goes out to you.
RIP Kaya.

[StephanieandToby]

Another great dog at the Bridge......I am so sorry for what you have lost.

[warrior1]

I am so very sorry. Prayers are sent your way. Remember, you have two special angels looking out for you.

[observer]

I'm so sorry Beth... your two new Rottie angels will watch over you and love you forever.

[Anne]

I'm so sorry Beth to hear this very sad news. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

You did what was best for Kaya and she now suffers no more pain. She will be waiting at the bridge for you.
Godspeed Kaya

[Rottlva]

Beth, I am so sorry. Thank you for putting your boy's needs ahead of your own, a true testament of the love you felt towards him.

God's speed sweet man.

[Dugganmom]

I am sooo sorry...just reading your post made me cry...i am so sorry for you loss

[lbraxton]

My prayers go out to you and your family. If you ever need a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen or just feel like venting, you've come to the right place.

I know it's hard and only time and prayer will get you through this.

Try and stay strong.

[Bucky's Mom]

I am so sorry for your loss

Lisa (Bucky's Mom)

[beledi]

I am so sorry!
Beledi/Erda's mom

[livertw]

We never have them long enough. I am so very sorry.

[gail pang]

Oh, honey I am so sorry for for your losses. I know all to
well about that ugly cancer hemangiosarcoma, took my
wonderful one (Rufus) and the pain is still there after
six years. Praying for you and your family.