Zoey

[lbraxton]

I'm hanging in there. It's still rough, just not as rough. Days and nights are still lonely and I miss her just as much as I did in the beginning. I have to admit that I'm not crying as much. I get choked up from time to time thinking about her. I was hoping that it would be a lot easier by now but it isn't. I haven't logged in - in a while because I miss her and I found myself missing her more when I chatted or read posts from individuals that still have their rottie. It's weird but I still wish she was w/me. I know I did the right thing but I want her back and it seems as if that feeling will never go away.

I'd like to thank everybody for their prayers and keep them coming - I still need them. It's rough and I miss her sooooo much.

We've been able to persuade the girls to wait until November to get a new dog. My oldest daughter came to us the other night and said, "Now, would Zoey want us to go this long w/out sharing our love w/another dog?" We thought it was too funny. She said she misses her but she knows that she's in a better place. I feel that way but I am not as strong as she is. She still thinks about her a lot but she doesn't cry anymore. She just keeps talking about how she's going to love the next puppy as much as she loves Zoey and that Zoey will be looking down at her saying, "You go girl, love that puppy!" She's really cute.

I don't know. Sometimes I smile when I think about her and alot of times I just feel as if I'm daydreaming.

[lovemypuppies]

Who could ever forget Zoey? Better days will come. I still smile when I think of "Wottweiler!"

[lbraxton]

Just wanted to log in because today was rough w/out her. I don't know y but it is. I wonder what's going on w/me but today sucks w/out my girl.

[RotZumZumRot]

I hope you can get through this hard time. But remember you have a family here too.
It is never easy to lose a love one and I am sure in time the pain will ease and you will start to remember the good times. Sorry for your loss hun.

Zumbi's Dad

[observer]

Sometimes when you are just feeling down for some reason, getting that quiet, unconditional love from a dog is the best cure. So, it makes sense.

[lbraxton]

You're right. I miss just rubbing her and playing w/her triangles. I miss kissing her beautiful head and I really miss her following me all over the house.

I miss everything about her. I know it gets better because it's gotten better but today really sucks!

[ronsky1232000]

I am so sorry for you having to make that final decision but Zoey relied on you 100% to do the best thing for her and that is what u did.

[lbraxton]

Originally Posted by ronsky1232000

I am so sorry for you having to make that final decision but Zoey relied on you 100% to do the best thing for her and that is what u did.

I know and I'm past that. What I'm not past is the pain. It's been a while now and some days it still seems sooooo fresh. I'm just venting and missing her - that's all.

It's so amazing how a dog touches your life and how you miss the little things about them. Zoey would toss her food bowl around and around until it broke. We finally got smart enough to purchase the stainless steel bowl after she cracked 3 bowls. (DUH) I also missed the way she would look at me in my bedroom because she couldn't come in my room unless invited. I miss the excitement in her eyes when I would come home. She would sit down and pray that I would rub her. She had to sit down before I would show her affection because I didn't want her jumping on people. I miss the way she would look at me when I would make her stay. It was look that said, when is she going to release me.

I MISS HER AND TODAY IS NOT A GOOD DAY!

Thanks for allowing me to vent!

[toshida]

I'm so sorry for your loss - the pain will dull - you'll think of her every now and then and be happy - I always think of all the good things and it brings a smile to my face.

[lovemypuppies]

I think of you and Zoey often...I pray that you do feel some relief soon. My own girl was in some pain today and i can't even speak of it. You have my deepest sympathy. Marianne.

[RomiandBone]

I am so sorry for your loss. I know how hard it was to do what you needed to do...for Zoey. Losing my two Rotties, Bone & Romi, has been one of the toughest things I have gone through. I know your pain and now it is so fresh. One day you will be able to look at pictures and smile...not cry. Romi when to the bridge last month I still have his collar on the back door....I hear it jingle and I smile now. I know he is in Heaven playing with all his friends...and now with Zoey.
My heartfelt thoughts and prayers are with you. Again, I am so sorry for your loss.