My Baby Beau has gone to the bridge

[beaumybaby]

I have been reading this forum for many years just have never posted until now. I had to say goodbye to my baby Beau (10 years old) on June 23rd and it was the hardest thing I have had to do. I had been very very ill with a severe kidney infection the prior week so sick was completely out of it with pain. All this time he laid by my bedside trying to comfort me and watch over me. On Thursday he was with me in the house and then I took him out and was watching him when I noticed that his stomach was somewhat bloated more than it ever has been. He also could not pass a bowel movement of any size. I watched and petted him for many hours knowing deep down something was terribly wrong. I sat with him and cried while he just looked at me with those bring beautiful brown eyes and licked my hand. The next morning the vet said to bring him in between 1-1:30 so I went and did my errands for my business that morning and came home to find him trying to nap. I told him lets go big boy for a ride he got up but not very enthusiastically. I took him out to our suburban now he has always been lazy and only put his feet up and expected me to lift the rest of him into our truck or suburban so I had him go over to get in the front seat and he couldn’t do it without almost falling over. I could tell he was so disappointment with himself so I coxed him back over and lifted him up into the backseat so he could walk to the front seat. We drove to town the whole time he was licking my hand and I just had the worst feeling he just didn’t act like himself. We arrived at the vet and he couldn’t get out of the vehicle on his own so I lifted him out and he began his usual sniffing and marking.

We went into the office and he never liked the vet but he was indifferent to being there. The vet had me get a urine sample and then we took him back to take an x-ray. He just laid on the table as we did the x-ray which he never would have done. The vet came in about ten minutes later as Beau and I were in the room waiting and I was talking to him he was laying on the floor. The vet told me had hemangiosarcoma with a tumor so large in his stomach it was partially blocking his intestines and there was nothing he could do. I sat there with tears streaming down my face knowing the time had come that I had to say goodbye to my beloved Beau-Beau. We lifted him up on the table and he laid there as I cried and talked to him he had his head in my arms and just looked at me until he was gone. We stayed with him for about an hour as I cried and cried.

The vet has just called they have his ashes back and I need to go pick them up. I am so devastated without my baby I see him everywhere and expect to see him. I am trying to move on but I have such a hole in my heart. When my hubby comes home off of the slope we are going to get his urn a gentleman is woodcarving Beau’s picture on it with his DOB and DOD. I have so much pain and miss him so much. My other little dog Sadie (Dachshund) doesn’t understand. Reading all the stories on here has helped and knowing he no longer is in pain, which I am sure he was, helps but I miss him terribly. Thank you for letting me share.

[Rottenrottydog]

Very sorry for your loss.
God speed Beau..god speed.

[darius28z]

hang in there.its never fun making that last trip.but it sounds like your dog was at peace thats why he was licking your hand to let you know he loved you.and was thanking you for being a good freind. maybe my sammy, tacoma, and amadaeous were there to help him cross the bridge.hugs

[marianne]

Please just remember the good days with Beau...these sad days will be with you for for along time. He is now pain free waiting at the bridge for you.

Beau....RIP.....grab a cloud...watch the butterflies.

Godspeed.Beau

[spoiledbabies3]

I am so sorry to hear about Beau. You were both blessed to share 10 wonderful years together, although the time we have is never enough with our rotties. My heart aches for you. The pain will subside and time will help that hole in your heart to diminish. You will always have a place for Beau in your heart, that's what our rotties do best. They wriggle right into our hearts, and then when they leave us they become our "rottie angels". Beau is still with you. He has crossed the bridge and has met many new friends as I'm certain my Sasha and Tuxedo greeted him. Thank you for being his companion, and he knew this was a difficult decision for you that's why he was sharing his "kisses" with you to the very end. He will now watch over you and help to guide you. Godspeed Beau as you fly on your wings of gold. Watch over your family, they miss you dearly. I will keep all of you in my thoughts and prayers.

[StephanieandToby]

I'm very sorry you lost Beau.

When I lost my Toby I felt completey lost until I got his ashes back. That helped me to grieve.

Again, I am sorry.

[AngelBunny]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you take comfort in knowing Beau had the best life he could have had because he was your dog.

[gail pang]

Oh honey I know the hurt all to well with Hemangiosarcoma, I lost my
wonderful one (Rufus) to that dreaded cancer. The vet was checking him
for something else and that popped up. I wish we could have them longer
in our lives, they made me a much better person.

So sorry for your loss. Now he is running and playing without pain.

[beaumybaby]

Thanks to all of you. Yes it did help to get his ashes back now I feel like he is at least "at home". I try and remember all the positive stuff. Just hard that one day he was acting and looked fine and the next I am told he has cancer that has spread and there is no cure and nothing that can be done..

I appreciate all of your support that has helped immensely too.

[TR Young]

Bless Beau's heart... he watched over you while you were sick, so that he knew you'd be ok. I am so sorry to hear that you had to say goodbye to such a loyal friend.
Rest easy, Beau.

[rottie girl]

I understand your pain and sadness and I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. May you keep his many memories warm in your heart.

[slinger]

I am so sorry for your loss. I just had to have Jordan PTS this morning, and I lost Sofie to bone cancer last November, so I am crying right along with you.

I hope that you find peace knowing that your boy is in a better place.

Leanne

[Ninasmom]

I am terribly sorry for your loss.

[Sharon Marples]

I am so sorry for your loss, what a wonderful companion he must have been for ten years. Our thoughts are with you at this difficult time.

[dennisj]

Know that he will always be at your side.