Jake :(

[My Lil Jake]

I have to start by saying that i am myself 7 and a half monthes pregnant and very hormonal to begin with. So as I sit here sobbing my eyes out i try to justify my feelings. Thank you everyone who took the time to read my story. its hard to find someone that is soooooo attached to their dog as i am. To answer some people's sincere questions.... here i go.... this was the 3rd opinion and 3 full monthes of trying to figure out what was wrong with jake. I took him yesterday at 2 pm to angell memorial hostpital in boston mass. after the 2 hour wait and my little pup ( well not so little 80# ) bark and look as if he was gonna viciously attack every dog that was bigger than him in order to protect me.... i start to cry. i look down at this little guy and hes close to being my whole life. he eats with me, he sleeps with me , we walk together, we watch tv together and most of all he was sickinly affectionate. if he had a prime rib bone in front of him and he was eating it in the kitchen, and i left to go to the bathroom or some other room he would leave the bone ( hide it under a chair ) and come to the door and cry ( most of the time.... me letting him in )then i see this woman come in histericle because her ferrit was gonna die so i started crying again... everyone looking at me like i was a nut. I felt obliged to tell all looking at me that jake was sick and was the cutiest dog in the world and may have to be put down.... that and i had visons of me standing up yelling the the f..k are you allllllll looking at... oh yeah guys i was dead inside. so then 2 hours later i took him in to see a neuorligical scientist/ doctor and with no tests done ( cause this was the 3rd time i had been there ) she told me clearly that this was only getting worse with his age and wait and that the smartest option wopuld be to put him down. The sickest thing is i was devistated but it was what i was looking to hear. i needed it in black and white. they asked if i wanted to be with him and i couldnt so they gave me his collar and i gave my slobbering kisses and received his drool alllllllll over me for the last time... they put a new collar on him and begain walking to the door jake barely letting them his little paws trying to find traction on the wax floors. he looks up at me with this face saying " where you going ma " it killed me. i drove home in complete silence sobbing my eyes oput and hitting the stearing wheel feeling like i failed him. Then i got home to a huge empty cold house with no one to greet me..... this is awful i said... i slept no more that 2o min. last night and was kept awake by the real baby kicking away at my belly.
i look down at her ( my baby ) and said ****.... this is gonna be a long ride.
day by day inm sure ill get better i am just absolutley torn right now. thank you ALL for your support it means a lot.
sorry about the speeling throughout this post.. i cant even see the keyboard.
thanks again
brianne ( jake in heaven ) :(

[mrsknicks71]

Brianne:
I am sorry for your loss. I am here if you need ANYTHING, God Bless you sweetie.

[KatMc]

Brianne,

I'm so sorry to read this about Jake. I was really praying that he would get better. Please take care of yourself and your baby, he would want that.

He loved you and he knew you loved him. He's at the Bridge now watching from there, with no pain.

Kathy

[NewRescueMom]

Please know we are with you and hear for you. I am so sorry for your loss but this was the last act of love you could have given Jake!

[LORHEL]

My heart goes out to you. I am dealing with the possibility of having to put our boy down, but not for medical reasons such as yours. It is a long story. If I have to, I will be so empty inside. He has been my life for a year now, and I cannot imagine what it will be like not to see his face every day. I cried at the vet yesterday also, in front of complete strangers.
I felt so stupid, but I couldn't control it.
I finally got to talk one on one to the vet.

Take each day at a time, and remember he will be at peace watching over you. He will always be in your heart. You did the right thing, but it still hurts. I will keep you in my thoughts.

Lori

[Homerhomer]

I am sooo sorry to hear that.

[Sheenagirl]

Well it took me till this afternoon to be able to reply to your post. That was so heart wrenching I could barely finish reading all of your post. That was horrible for you to have to go through. You are in my prayers.

[michale baker]

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Some people can't understand how devastating the loss of a pet can be, but I do.

The love you showed for Jake is obvious by the way he followed you around. You should be happy to know yougave him a good life for the short time he was here.

I'll keep you, Jake, and your unboen baby in my prayers.

My deepest sympathies...HUG

[jmorgan]

brianne:
we've been there and we know your pain. take comfort knowing that you'll be with him again. our lost ones have no concept of time and when we see them again it will be like no time has passed at all.
losing kodiak changed me for the better and i am thankful for the two short years he gave me. try to smile for jake despite the tears and cherish every memory. i promise the pain will subside but his memory will be with you for the rest of your life.

[DianaC]

I sat in a surgery full of people afterwards and cried but I never noticed all the people looking at me and wouldn't have cared if they stared at me anyway. Grief is not something to be hidden away.

[Atti's Mom]

Please know that you did everything and like others have said already, he is at the bridge painfree and watching you like the angel that he is.
Time will help to dull the pain and in the meantime, rather it is a month, or years, we are all here to listen if you need us to!
We can all feel your pain(Im wiping tears now,as I type!)
Please take care of yourself and your little one on the way, We are all here if you need us! Melissa

[DixieGrl113]

So sorry for your loss. I'm still sniffling. As I'm reading your post there is a special on ABC about pets going to heaven...guess they don't know about the rainbow bridge

[KRISSIE]

Brianne, I sent a prayer up to my Rex who went to the rainbow bridge 19 months ago to take care of Lil' jake for you ..I'm sure Jake & Rex are playing together right now.

If you need to talk to someone you can P.M me anytime.

[Amber Joy]

Honey, I am so sorry for you honey!!! I will pray for you, and remember, he's in Heaven now, and he is always with you!

[ July 20, 2001: Message edited by: Phoenix ]