6 months today

[chivas]

Its been 6 months today since I lost the best thing that ever came into my life. I still wonder why?? Why did God take the best thing that ever happened to me? Why did she have to suffer with osteo in her last months? Why does it still hurt so much?
I suppose everyone asks these questions, I just wish I knew the answer to even one of them.
Chivas brought me so much joy and happiness in my life. And I still wonder when I am going to feel totally happy again. Someone once told me that you only get true love once in your life , be it a person or a dog. I had my one time, I wonder if she still feels my love at the Bridge?
Kim

[JBconway]

it has been 5 days now since my beloved Bama passed. I have cried each day but the happy memories are starting to become more & more. I do see myself like you though & not completely happy for a long long time. It is funny how love can hurt you so bad. i honestly feel empty inside. no Bama to play with. his toys are still in the yard, alone.

[Judy Chrusch]

As I've said many times, I don't come here often bc it hurts too much but decided tonight to come here. I'm so sorry Kim for your pain and I felt the same way after each one of my babies went to the bridge:( , all 3, but you know what you will find love again and you will have that wonderful feeling again but you must allow yourself to do so and have no guilt. With each one it will be alittle different but it's a great feeling knowing you can give love to another. So give yourself time to grieve and when it's time for you to share your love again you'll know when that time is. I feel your pain and hope one day soon you'll have peace in knowing your beloved Chivas would want you to be happy again and fill that hole in your heart with another. I know he brought you joy but one day you will feel that again, I promise. Don't ask why when God makes decisions for us bc perhaps we have something to learn through a tragedy, so keep your faith and feel good about the life you did have with Chivas. God Bless!

Judy

[Birdie'sMom]

Believe that she knows that you love her and can feel it, even at the bridge. I'm sorry for your pain. I hope you can get through the pain and have only the happy memories of Chivas to stay with you until you meet her again.

[mmgy]

I've always heard about that one special dog, some people call it your heartdog. And I'll never get over the fact that mine was my first dog. But I can tell you, that now, three years later, he is still with me every moment of every day. (Three years, three months, 21 days). I have unaltering faith that he is with me forever. I went through an awful period, when I realized that I couldn't ever care for another like I did him, and how was I going to get through the rest of my life without a dog?? But every morning, I had to get up and get moving, because I had other dogs that needed me, regardless of how I felt.

The turning point was nearly a year later, when the brittany puppies ran out in front of my car. We had no intention of keeping them, and were in the process of finding them homes. One was the runt, and he was an incredibly sensitive soul. A man wanted him, a nice enough man that would treat him adequately, but I could tell it wouldn't be enough. I had lots of mental conversations with my old dog, and he let me know that it was okay for me to take care of that puppy.

Today, that puppy is my little baby Clevie, and he is flourishing, but it has taken a lot of work. I know my old dog is watching over him; he is Cleve's special keeper, because you see, he was a sensitive soul too, and it's his job now to look out for other dogs that need that same touch. I've learned that this is my place in "dogdom", and he will always be helping me help other dogs.

I've also learned that you can have more than one special dog. My old Boo will always stand out as the greatest, but Cleve is a very special dog in his own right.

You may not find your place for a while, but when you do, you will feel peace.

M2

[ShipNC]

Been 13 days since I lost Cara. Have good days and bad days but it's hurting less. The only thing that keeps it from being more bad than good is believing in the bridge. I for one won't ever question it's existence. I have too many face licks coming when my time is done. Be at peace all we'll get through it and move on, not much choice.

[honeybunny22199]

I know how you are feeling. It was 6 mos ago on the 25th that we lost Levi, also to cancer. It was a horrible day. I was barely able to get out of bed. But, I did because my new baby Hunter gave me a reason to. He is such a sweet soul. He is completely different than Levi was, but just as wonderful in his way. I believe that Levi led me to him because he needed me to love him. And I believe that Levi watches over him, giving him pointers. I will ALWAYS miss my buddy Levi. He was such a sweet boy. Loyal, and protective all the way to the end. But they say that when God closes a door, he opens a window. When my window opened, Hunter jumped in, and landed in my lap and my heart. I can't have Levi back. I have only the memories now. I'm thankful for the time I had with him. Now I focus on caring for my new baby, making new memories. I look forward to the day when we are all together at the bridge.

[LORHEL]

I know your pain all too well, but let me say, Chivas would not want you to not love another rottweiler again. You may have one true love of your life, but you can have many other loves just as well.

Now that said, I do have the most precious rottie girl, who came to us, truly by luck and by timing made possible by my first rottie boy Zeke. You have to know the circumstances of how it all worked out, but know, that he did send her to me.

She is my everything. His memory and the love I had for him, even though his time was short here, live on through her.

It will get better, but you will never forget Chivas...she is in your soul, and you will meet her again, and until then, let love come into your life again, when the time is right for you.

Lori

[chivas]

thanks everyone for the words of encouragement. Its just harder some days then others. I never thought she would ever be gone. She was never "old" even at 11 years, only the cancer slowed her down. I still expect to come home and see her and when there is nothing it hurts. I was lucky in many ways, that I know. I try to count them daily to make the pain less. I was lucky to have her 11 years, i know most rotties dont live that long. I was lucky she had 5 good months after the diagnosis, i also read how many dont have that long. I was lucky that she was so special to me. So I see that in many ways I am luckier then most, but it doesnt make me feel better. SHe was my savior during a very bad marriage and my light in the darkest days, i just miss her so much.
Kim

[rottsnroses]

I wonder if she still feels my love at the Bridge?

Of course she does, and she will always be with you in spirit, but she also feels the pain in your heart too. There will never be another Chivas - just as I know as there will never be another Reno - but she wouldn't want to you to keep hurting for her as you are. She would want you to share that wonderful love she knew with you with another lucky dog.

Someone once told me that you only get true love once in your life, be it a person or a dog

Ah, but the human heart's capacity for love is endless. While each love is unique and special, it is quite possible to love another in a completely different way than you did Chivas, and the love of another can be a healing balm on your wounded soul. You will never replace her, you will never forget her, but the pain will lessen with the passing of time.

Never a day passes that I don't think of my baby Reno and how much I miss him, but I know how much it used to upset him when I was sad. Because of him, we got Max, who has brought joy to my heart again. I still cry for my Reno, and that won't change for a long time, but I know that he would want me to be happy while I am here on earth, and when the day comes, he will be there waiting for me, just as Chivas will be for you.

When you are ready, you will know. (((((((((Hugs))))))))http://www.jordysworld.de/emoticons/trau13.gif