[seoultrader]

I'll prolly get flamed for this but that's ok.

You got nothing to be ashamed/guilty about. It's a dog. Dogs don't always show obvious signs of distress.

Will it forgive you? Come on, this is a silly concept at best. It's a dog. It doesn't have the ability to "forgive". You're a good person, obviously willing to sacrifice a lot for a dog (which I honestly probably would not since I seem to have a different view on pet/owner relationships than most folks here) so don't for a second feel bad.

Whatever happens, it was the way it was programmed by nature (and who knows, your pooch may beat the odds and live to be 15, right?It's like we all got got that one relative who smoked 3 packs a day and drank like a fish while eating Big Macs all day but lived to be 80+.