[lucasmom]

Hello my rottie friends:
I want to take the time this evening to share a few thoughts with each of you. First of all, let me say that it is difficult to keep track of all of the dear rotties and their parents who are going through this extremely difficult time, so forgive me if I forget someone.

Below is a quote from Ninasmom and I want you to know that I could not have summed these mutual feelings any better than you did...thank you for this.

"None of us wants these dogs to die. None of us asked for osteo as the way to check out. If I could choose her death, it most certainly wouldn't be like this and most certainly wouldn't be soon. But I can't. So I sit and wait and watch. Because I don't want to be wrong; I don't want to wait too long. I don't want to be selfish. So I sit and wait and watch."

Eileen...I am so very sorry to hear about your Lexi. I cannot even fathom the pain you must be feeling right now, but know that Lexi will live on in your heart and she is running free in Heaven. God bless you at this difficult time. I will be praying for you.

Chamasmom...my thoughts and prayers are with you also as you found the love and courage to let your Chama cross over to Heaven. I will likely be facing this dreaded experience very soon with my Lucas. My heart goes out to you and I will keep you in my prayers as well.

Caseygina(Riley) and Anne (Sophie)....I hope that your beloved dogs continue to do well. It is such a blessing that you have had since the end of December to share with your wonderful dogs. I wish that Lucas could stay with me for a few more months, but I know that it is probably only a couple more weeks that I have with him. He did not have a very good night last evening and I am hoping tonight will be better. He just could not get comfortable and was getting up and changing positions most of the night. Right now, fortunately, he is sleeping beside me and resting peacefully.

My husband and I decided that if he continues to not be able to sleep or rest comfortably, likely due to pain, we will put him to sleep this coming week. He is taking his tramadol regularly, but there are times that it is evident that he is not comfortable. We do not want him to suffer on our behalf.

Today was a good day though. Lucas went for his cheeseburger :) and ice cream!! I know that this is not really good for his body, but it does wonders for his soul and spirit!!

Love and prayers to you all - Laurie