[Ninasmom]

I have stayed out of this specifically because I currently have an osteo-dog and reading this thread sometimes is too emotional for me. But I need to say something now, since Nina was diagnosed on 12/22 that I think some people reading this thread need to understand. Everyone living with an osteo-dog knows what I'm talking about.

People like me (and from what it sounds like, Laurie) watch our dogs everyday waiting for 'that sign'. We all know what it is... that sign that it is time. Every day, I look at Nina and wonder if this is her last day. And everyday, she tells me, "No, Mom, not yet." Yesterday, she was playing with the cat, ate half of Rogan's food and walked around with her ball in her mouth and her butt wiggling. The medications are working for her. We're lucky - right now. That can change on a dime.

None of us wants these dogs to die. None of us asked for osteo as the way to check out. If I could choose her death, it most certainly wouldn't be like this and most certainly wouldn't be soon. But I can't. So I sit and wait and watch. Because I don't want to be wrong; I don't want to wait too long. I don't want to be selfish. So I sit and wait and watch.