[BeauandShan]

Hi Laurie

I know how you feel. I feel exactly the same with my boy Beau. He too has osteosarcoma. (in his Shoulder). It is huge and I hate just having to look at it. He is on on pain meds at the moment but I know the time is getting near as his mobility is getting worse, he is on fortnightly checks with the vet at the moment and each time I fear the worst, in some ways I think it would be easier the vet saying it was time as it would take the decision out of my hands.
I am staying downstairs with Beau also just because he has always slept by the side of our bed and he cannot make the stairs anymore. Each morning I wake and he is there looking up at me with those eyes that bear right into you almost as if to say "OK Mum I'm here"
I am taking everyday as it comes at the moment and counting each day as a blessing and more memories in the making. He has given me so many happy memories over the past eleven ++ years and that is how I want to remember him. I could not let him lose his dignity by making him suffer just because it gives us an extra day together.
My last gesture to him for his loyalty and love for me will be to let him go peacefully and with his dignity lead on my lap as he love to do.

My thoughts are with you at this very sad time
Deb x