[Sheenagirl]

Please don't feel guilty. The surgery would not have been a guarantee that your boy would have even recovered or walked again. A 50/50 chance is not that great considering the post op, pain and rehab he would have had to endure. It would have been awful to put him through all that pain only then to find he would never walk again and have to put him to sleep. To me that would have been too hard to handle.
I am sure we all have had "what ifs". Believe the surgeon when he said you made the right decision - he has seen enough to know.
Having gone through this myself I have a good idea how you are feeling right now.
Although "you" have a great deal of pain, remember your boy is not in any pain now and running free and happy.
It is always harder on the ones left behind - but one day you will be together again...