[moz205]

I feel for you so much. It's such a terrible decision. I went through the same thing with Rommel, many times. It was an ongoing decision that I was struggling with, all the time. Seems like daily I was asking myself should he be put down. In the end, even after he attacked my husband and bit him badly and I mean he latched onto his side I still couldn't find the courage to pts. Rommel put a huge wedge between us for a long time as I refused to pts. Many nights I cried over it. We also had our infant son who was born when Rommel was 4 yo. Should I have put him down, 99.9% of people told me yes but I still wouldn't do it. Was I foolish, definitely, lucky- most definitely as we didn't have any other incidents like that. There are plenty of words I can use to describe my not putting him to sleep then and there. I went so far as telling hubby I would leave with the dog and our son if he insisted on getting rid of him. It seems incredible that I was able to avoid tragedy but it took an unbelieveable amount of work, every minute that someone other than myself was in the house.
I am telling you this so that you know that it sounds like your dog will never be a "family pet" that your children can run around the yard with unless major intervention turns her around. Like me, I think that doubt will always be there though, no matter what. Since Rommel's personality was instilled in me, I do have issues trusting Buddy as well but am learning to trust him as he is as friendly as they come. Now my son CAN and does play with his dog. He remembers that he couldn't do that with Rommel and tells me how he is so glad he can do that now. It is definitely one of the hardest things to deal with. Although Rommel was with me for 13 years and I miss him dearly, I took huge chances out of ignorance and love and placed my priorities in the wrong order.