[marya]

Thanks again to all who have taken the time to write. I keep going over our life with Roxie, and how little by little things had changed. We did not have another dog to compare her with, and she was our first dog, so we just kept on trying our best. I had read Marley and Me, and I laughed because Roxie wasn't destructive like Marley. But, in her own way she had problems. She was reactive and strange, staying under the bed for very long periods of time. I realize now that she was under the bed way too long, avoiding any contact with us except for going out to play ball and frisbee and a walk. then back inside, visit for a bit and then back under the bed (I thought it was her den to her). She was antisocial and becoming more so. She was socialized as a puppy and seemed to like all dogs and people. Sometimes subtle changes are hard to pick up, especially when dynamics change. There are some very wise and caring members on this website, and I am thankful for this place to be able to express myself. I kept notes on Roxie's behavior, and I think I would like to put them together sometime, if I am able. Should I just try to move on? She was such a part of my daily life, it is empty without her, even with all the extra management of her. My husband would like to try again for a normal affectionate dog. I can't think about that now.

Some of you have had worse problems than we did, so thats been a help to see that -- I guess I've not been so crazy to have kept on trying. Others went much further than my husband and I. I still can't face our mail lady. She greeted Roxie and me a lot on our front lawn and remarked about what a good dog she was -- those earlier younger more manageable days. Nothing more to say except that I hope I can help someone else as you all have helped me. Thank you all.

Marya