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Originally Posted by Debbie Ervin  Oh my God, he looks just like my Ceasar!..............
Each day I miss him more and some days as you said are not as bad. Know I am feeling the same as you........
Ceasar usto lay next to me while I made the kids candy up every year. I put his toys next to his picture and Thors(my other Rottie who passed 3 years ago). I have to say Max reminds me of my Ceasar. |
Since MAX leave us for a better world we undestand why we called him our best friend. I cant really explain the vacuum he left in the house. MAX was for the last 13 years part of every events in our family life.
I mist him so much ...! Me too i mist his presence at my side each day.
I am amaze how our childrens seem to accept better and easier his death then for me and my wife, they can talk about him and remembering the good moments with him, but me and my wife still cant do it.
Last saturday night about 2 weeks since MAX left us, we went for supper to a restaurant question of changing air, but on the returning trip we begun to talk about MAX. Hum..... it taked only 2 minutes and we were both crying in the car and when we came back home we dindt say a word for the rest of the night.
I wish to be able to go on soon and to succeed in forgiving me but i still feel very guilty so guilty to have made the decision to put and end to his life...!
I cant forget the feeling i had at the last moment when suddently i feel him heavy on my knees, i held MAX tight in my arms when he left i wanted to be with him cheering him until the last second .. oh what i have done....!
Oh my god i'm so sad...! I cant write anymore tonight.
I'm sorry...!