[Debbie Ervin]

It is a part of the greiving process, I know how you feel as we all would feel the same. There are many different emotions that we go through.One of which is blame. We look in ourselves and keep going over what happened and see if we can blame ourselves. We can't. Most on this network are very responsible owners and would do anything humanly possible to make sure our babies are ok. The odds are stacked against us sometimes, which yes is not FAIR. Especially for one so young and so loved!! I mean that. I lost my Ceasar last Monday at 11 and I am going through every emotion but was so fortunate to have had him so long. Of course I will tell you it doesn't make it one ounce easier. However I know what you are saying and my heart goes out to you, and I know you are not just talking that it was not fair for you, it was not fair to Kenzie. She will be ok and all our angel babies will watch over her. She will be much loved until you see her again. Try to calm down and try to get rid of this part, the blame and anger part. Try to move onto the beautiful memories that you shared for even the short time. You know when you have a baby it is love at first site on both parts. So it was for you and your Kenzie. She new she was loved and that counts for the world!!! God Love you and good luck w/your twins. Sincerely, D. Ervin