As to the neighbors pets, nobody has any around here. Wait a dog that lived on the pond (my dogs are not allowed near it) died from cancer, but all the other dogs there seem to be fine. The elderly man across the street is in the last stages of his eight year battle with cancer, and the neighbor lady backed onto my yard had breast cancer.
I never posted any news prior to this, in fear of jinxing my girl. Since Diva's nodes have been up, I really don't eat or sleep. I'm one of those that goes of food in emotional upheaval. Good thing, because since January of 2005, I have had to deal with the worst things in my life... to date so far. I felt that if I wrote about our plight, her fate would be sealed. Stupid, I know, but you reason with someone that hardly eats or sleeps.
After posting, I did a few things in my studio, and started heading for bed. Diva heads me off at the pass, and would not leave me alone. I helped her into bed with us (hubby passed right out), and she was panting and her breathing was very labored. She was very restless and I had to turn towards the foot of the bed, and comfort her. Of course my mind is racing, and I don't even know where to find a vet for a house call. She must be at home when her time comes. I went downstairs to my studio and sobbed until my guts ached. Then I pulled myself together, and reasoned with myself. Then I just started to "hope". Even if it got me through an hour or so, "hope" would pull me through. One can only hope it was a small healing crisis, which I have read about. However, I don't think I would want to wait and see for very long.
Diva came down at 8:30am, with bright eyes, and her bitchie attitude towards the other dogs and her stuff (everything in the house). She took all her herbs, tinctures, and vitamins in a plethora of cream cheese, ate her beef breakfast, then came mooching for a carcass (big raw beef bone). She has now chewed herself to sllep, and I am sitting here in limbo... How I'm going to get myself going is beyond me. I'm just glad she's still okay, because I really thought it was the end earlier. I can't think about it yet, she is all the good that is left within me.