[spidey]

I'm sorry this was rough, but you did the right thing, you were brave enough to do what had to be done.

It might help a bit to remember that Dozer wasn't really "fighting for his life", he was fighting being held down and sedated. He didn't know he was being put to sleep, he knew that he was being restrained and it was THAT that he was reacting to. Don't make this more difficult for yourself by ascribing a level of understanding to him that he didn't have. It's hard enough that you had to do this, and had to fight with him during it. I agree with moondog 100%, if anything, this makes it MORE certain that you did the right thing.