Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers. My heart is heavy and my responses are very short because I'm trying to keep from breakin down in front of my daughters. I want to be strong but it's so hard. I want to go in the bathroom and breakdown but I know once I start, it will not end for a while. I feel as if I'm in this all alone. My husband seems as if he's not affected by it at all. He's now saying how much work it was and he's not sure if he wants another dog. Right now, I just want to sleep and not wake up (no suicide). I just want to sleep until the pain is completely gone. I feel horrible and alone. I pray to God that the pain will soon subside. I've never experienced pain like this before in my life.
I loved her w/all my heart. It feels as if I lost a child.
