| Today is exactly 2 yrs I lost Nico to hemangiosarcoma. Needless to say my heart still aches and he left a void in my life that I could never fill. Nico was diagnosed on wednesday and left this world 2 days later. One reason was he was bleeding internally, it was offered to me that there was a "CHANCE" they could stop that bleeding and move on from there. He was in University of Penn.
My heart was beating out of my chest, the tears were too many too ever count, my husband was in shock, I was losing a love that I can never put into words, and they wanted to cut him open to "POSSIBLY" stop the bleeding. No way!
I made the decision to take his life quickly. I wanted him to die with the dignity he was born with, and I NEVER wanted him to KNOW pain for not even ONE second. I could do that for him. and I did. Losing him was the hardest thing I have delt with in my 34 yrs. Thinking he was possibly in pain, hurt worse. Watching him pass was devastating, knowing that I helped him one last time was my only comfort.
No one can tell you what to do, it is a personal decision, but all I can offer is when you love something enough to put thier needs before yours, that's LOVE. I will be praying for your family. I'm sorry that you are being faced with this horrible disease. Stay strong.
Dana
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Nico 1996-2003
Santo 2003-2005
My boys, your paws are forever imprinted on my heart!
Our greatest glory is not in ever falling, but in rising every time we fall. |