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Doing what you have done is NEVER "best for us", and at those emotional times it's sometimes hard to be clear on what's right for us, versus what's right for them. Time will help you here, and make your decisions clearer to you.

As for her remains, I've never been in a hurry to "do" anything, including picking them up. That's very personal, but don't feel any guilt if you're not sure just yet what to do.

I'm so sorry you're struggling with this...............

Another sweet soul at the bridge. Rest peacefully Addy.